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The very nastiest and coarsest, I can't tell you. It is not grief, not dullness, but much worse. It is as if all that was good in me had hidden itself, and only what is horrid remains.
Leo Tolstoy, Anna Karenina
Most decisions that feel enormous are actually small ones that you have been putting off until they grew teeth. The weight you feel is not the choice itself but all the smaller choices you avoided making along the way, each postponement adding another layer of false urgency. You have been treating this as if it will change everything when what you really fear is that it will change very little, that the life you have been protecting by not choosing is already the life you are living. The decision that terrifies you is probably the one that returns you to something you already know about yourself.