Cancer

A promise that has become difficult to keep is still teaching you something about what you meant when you made it. The words you used then carried a weight you could feel but had not yet measured, and now the measuring is what makes the keeping hard. Your hands remember the gesture of the original yes before your head starts calculating what it will cost. There is something in the gap between what you promised and what you can actually do that shows you who you were when the promise felt easy, and who you are now that it does not.