Taurus

The thing you want most is also the thing you are most afraid of wanting. This particular fear has nothing to do with failure and everything to do with what happens if you get it. You keep testing the weight of it in your hands, turning it over, checking whether you could carry it without it carrying you away. The fear tells you exactly how much this matters, which is more than you have been willing to admit. What you are circling around is whether you can let it reshape you without losing what you already know about yourself.