Scorpio

The thing you are most afraid of wanting is the same thing you check on every day without naming it. You know the signs that it is moving closer or further away, the small indicators that other people would not think to track. This is not about the wanting itself but about how carefully you have learned to watch for proof that the wanting might be safe to admit. The fear and the ambition are the same motion, just facing different directions, and the watching is what holds them both.