Scorpio

The thing you are afraid of wanting is the same thing you check on most carefully when no one is looking. You return to it in quiet moments, not to decide whether you want it but to make sure it is still there, still possible, still yours to approach when you are ready. This kind of wanting requires a different attention than the immediate kind, something closer to tending than pursuing. The fear and the desire are not opposites but partners in the same careful watching, both of them making sure nothing moves too fast.