Sagittarius
It's a very Greek idea, and a very profound one. Whatever we call beautiful, we quiver before it. And what could be more terrifying and beautiful, to lose control completely? To throw off all the chains of being for an instant, to shatter the accident of our mortal selves?
Donna Tartt
The work choice you have been avoiding is not actually about the work itself but about what saying yes would require you to admit about what you want your days to look like. You have been treating it as a practical question when it is really a question about whether you are ready to live at the scale your ambitions actually demand. The delay has not been about gathering more information or waiting for better timing. It has been about whether you are prepared to defend a life that looks different from the one you have been explaining to other people. The decision becomes simple once you stop pretending it is complicated.