Leo
Gently the waves would break (Lily heard them in her sleep); tenderly the light fell (it seemed to come through her eyelids). And it all looked, Mr. Carmichael thought, shutting his book, falling asleep, much as it used to look years ago.
Virginia Woolf
Some people gave you their full attention when you needed it most, and now you feel like you owe them something that has no clear price. This kind of debt accumulates differently than money does. It sits in the space between what was offered and what you have been able to offer back. The weight of it changes how you move through rooms where those people might be. What settles this is giving that same quality of attention forward to someone else who needs it, until the owing becomes a way of seeing rather than a burden you carry.