Gemini
When by my solitary hearth I sit,When no fair dreams before my "mind's eye" flit,And the bare heath of life presents no bloom;Sweet Hope, ethereal balm upon me shed,And wave thy silver pinions o'er my head.
John Keats
The conversation you are not having with someone is taking place anyway, in how you both handle the doorways and the timing of texts. What has changed between you exists in the gap where the old ease used to be, and you are both performing around it without naming it. You know this because you have started choosing your words differently, not because the feelings have changed but because the rules for expressing them have. The shift happened in the margins, in what gets left unsaid now that used to be assumed. This week, the performance gets harder to maintain than the conversation you have been avoiding.