Gemini
Great sadnesses ... they are the moments when something new has entered into us, something unknown; our feelings grow mute in shy perplexity, everything in us withdraws, a stillness comes, and the new, which no one knows, stands in the midst of it and is silent.
Rainer Maria Rilke
The absence of an apology changes the whole story you have been telling yourself about what happened between you and someone else. When you first realize it will never come, the missing words reorganize every conversation you have had since, every careful distance you have maintained, every way you learned to be around this person without naming what sits between you. The silence where those words should have been becomes its own kind of answer, and suddenly you understand that you have been waiting for the wrong thing. What you actually need is not the words they will never say, but your own permission to stop listening for them.