Capricorn

The thing you are afraid of wanting is the same thing you have been building toward for months without admitting it. You keep calling it practical concerns or being realistic about your options, but underneath the careful language is a want so large it makes you nervous to look at it directly. The fear is not that you might fail at it but that you might succeed and then have to live inside what you built. What you are avoiding is not the work but the question of whether the work is taking you somewhere you actually want to be.