Capricorn
I tell you solemnly, that I have many times tried to become an insect. But I was not equal even to that. I swear, gentlemen, that to be too conscious is an illness- a real thorough-going illness.
Fyodor Dostoyevsky
The thing you are afraid of wanting is the same thing you have been quietly working toward for months, maybe years. You recognize this in the way you deflect when people ask about your plans, how you change the subject when the conversation gets too close to what you actually care about. There is a strange safety in treating your deepest ambition like a secret, even from yourself. But the work continues anyway, in small daily choices that no one else would think to notice. What you call fear might just be the weight of caring about something that matters.