Cancer

The conversation you have been putting off is not the one you think it is. You have been rehearsing the words for what you believe needs to be said, but your hands know something different when you imagine sitting across from this person. There is something your chest recognizes about their presence that your prepared sentences cannot account for. The actual conversation will begin in the space between what you planned to say and what your voice does when you are finally in the same room. What you have been avoiding is not the difficulty of the words, but the difficulty of not knowing which version of yourself will show up to speak them.