Cancer

The conversation you have been avoiding is not the same conversation it was three weeks ago, even though the words you would use have barely changed. Something in how you hold the whole question has shifted without your noticing. You can feel it in the way your chest responds differently when their name comes up, or how the rehearsed opening lines that used to feel necessary now sound like they belong to someone else. The person who will finally have this talk is not the same person who first decided it needed to happen. That is exactly why it can happen now.