Cancer
In itself, homosexuality is as limiting as heterosexuality: the ideal should be to be capable of loving a woman or a man.
Simone de Beauvoir
The kind of boredom that follows you from room to room is not about having nothing to do. It is your attention trying to tell you that the thing you have been doing is no longer the thing you need to be doing. This restlessness arrives like weather, without warning, and it does not care how well your current situation works on paper or how much you have invested in keeping it exactly as it is. You can feel it in the way you keep looking at the clock, not because you are waiting for something specific but because time itself has started to feel strange. What you are calling boredom is actually hunger for a life that fits the shape you are becoming.