Aries
I didn't want any flowers, I only wanted To lie with my hands turned up and be utterly empty. How free it is, you have no idea how free - The peacefulness is so big it dazes you, And it asks for nothing. ~ Tulips (1961)
Sylvia Plath, Plath: Poems
Most decisions that feel enormous are actually asking you to choose between two versions of the same basic thing. The weight you feel is not the consequence of choosing wrong but the accumulated pressure of having postponed the choosing for so long. Your body already knows which way it wants to go, and it knew before your mind started building the case for why this choice matters so much. What you are calling careful consideration is often just the time it takes for your thinking to catch up to what you felt in the first thirty seconds. The decision itself is smaller than the story you have been telling yourself about what it means.