Aquarius

The thing you are afraid of wanting is the same thing you have been quietly preparing for without admitting it. You keep practicing the skills, researching the field, having the conversations that would only matter if you were serious about this path. The fear is not about failing at it but about what happens if you succeed and suddenly have to live as the person who got what they wanted. What you call hesitation is actually the work of becoming someone who could handle the answer being yes.