Aquarius

The thing you are most afraid of wanting is also the thing you think about when no one is watching. This double-bind lives in the space between what you know you could do and what you suspect others are ready to see you do. You have run the math on what it would cost to move toward it, and the math always comes back to the same uncomfortable number: most people will not understand the choice until much later, if at all. But the wanting does not care about timing, and neither does the capability that has been building itself quietly in the background.