Born Today?
A reading for your birthday. Cancer season.
The noble-minded worry about their lack of ability, not about people's failure to recognize their ability.
Confucius, The Analects
The same money question keeps surfacing because it is not really about money, and the numbers you run will never solve what is actually asking for your attention. Underneath the question about whether you can afford something is a question about what you are trying to protect, and underneath that is a question about what kind of safety you are trying to build. The calculation changes every time because the real question is whether you trust yourself to handle what might happen if you say yes, or what might happen if you keep saying no. You have been treating this as a problem to solve when it is actually a conversation between two parts of yourself that both want you to be okay. The year ahead asks you to listen to what each voice is trying to tell you, instead of trying to make them agree on a number.