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A reading for your birthday. Gemini season.
The quality of mercy is not strained; it droppeth as the gentle rain from heaven upon the place beneath. It is twice blessed: it blesseth him that gives and him that takes.
William Shakespeare, The Merchant of Venice
The thing you are afraid of wanting is often the same thing you cannot stop thinking about, and the gap between those two responses is where you have been living for longer than you want to admit. You know what it would mean to say yes to the pull, and you also know what it would cost, and so you have been practicing a careful dance of getting close enough to feel the edges without committing to the center. But the dance is getting harder to sustain, and the year ahead is the one that will ask you to choose between the version of yourself that stays safe in the space between wanting and having, and the version that finds out what happens when you stop treating your own appetite like a problem to be managed. The choice will not wait much longer.